Love, A Painful Bliss

Love,
Beautiful,
Yet Painful,
Freedom it offers,
Yet trapped in an emotional circle,

Love,
Makes you wise,
Yet the slave of it,
Reassures happiness,
Yet empty promises

Love
Gives you wings
Yet ties you down
Gives you hope
Yet breaks your faith

Love
Glorifies you like a sun
Saddens you like dark clouds
Love
Takes away your breath
Yet put an end to life
Love,
Can be the start
or the end
After all, it is love
Loving Obsessively
Vulnerability Eternally

-RUBY2010-

Break ups? Move on!

No man is an island. Each of us need someone-be it a good friend,mum,dad,sister,brother, and grandparents.Someone to share our lives with. But to witness? To have someone to witness our life requires a soul mate. He/she will see you through every step you take. He/she becomes a pillar, a new found energy and strength to move on. See, the thing is not many of us ask for help if we needed one, so many boundaries and restrictions we place on ourselves to make that one step, but with a spouse it never happens.Somehow all ego gets broken, and we portray and share our emotions and our faith and place our trust on that one person. That's the reason why when a person loses his/her sincere first love due to unfaithfulness, it takes ages for them to come out of it. They have bared their raw soul to that one person and trusted them with all their heart. When it is broken, it leaves behind a deep scar and take ages to heal or the life is ended before the scar could even heal. Neither do they give a chance to themselves nor to the one who will be sincerely loving them in the future. Or they simply move on or commit themselves into relationships out of 'no choice' excuses.It is a pity because life does not just stop there.People fail to see there is more to life than just one failure.Often things happen for a reason.Why not look at the positive side of it. Even if it is not apparent than and there, it would be one day. You just have to start looking. Why not give yourself a second chance.You deserve one!

My Favourite

Dil To Pagal Hai

P/S: My favourite part of the entire movie. What is there not to love about it, its
perfect.Brings back sweet memories.Click the link above and watch it for
yourself.

It Is Love

I love love. The feeling is so beautiful. It makes you pretty. You feel excited. It gives you the thrill of looking forward for the next day. A form of energy that comes endlessly. You are surrounded by the positive vibe. Nothing else matters. Music adds on a double joy to the feeling. The songs of love. Makes you think if they were written only for you. You wait hours for him. That one call you wait for the whole day keeps you going. The second you hear his voice, it melts your heart. All your troubles find their way out of the door. You talk like you are the only two people around. Everything about it is so beautiful. It changes anyone into a poet. You try hard to write the most beautiful verses of love, though you fail at it, yet it is the best one ever written to the significant other. Such is the power of love. It is like a magic.Love heals anything on the path it takes...

That Is What I Call Love

I go weak at my knees, my heart racing,pounding in my chest and feel the change in temperature in my body as I slip unknowingly into my imaginary world. A world full of beautiful things, full of colour, brightness, sunshine and most importantly a world with endless love.

That is exactly how I am when I am into one of those love story books. Did I mention that my favourite pass time is to fantasize? Yup, I think it is the girl in me who goes all weak as I read through the wonderful verses of love. I fall in love along with the characters. Imagining how I would like to end up just like that.How I would want to be swept off my feet just like her? I am a dreamer. Really I am. I have always wondered how it felt to have those strong arms wrapping around me, feeling loved and safe. How it feels to be kissed under the moonlight? Dancing along with him with all the eyes on us. A sort of like a princess but actually a very simple girl with the blessings to be in love.

So yeah, this is just part of the raw soul of mine that I bared here. I am so into the loving mood after reading Judith McNaught's Untill You that it hit me once again how glorious it is to be in love.Don't you agree?

My Valentine's Day Story

Day One:A friend told me you are out there somewhere.

You will come & I just have to wait
Wait is exactly what I did....

The day has finally come-
February 14
I wondered how is this day going to be
The girl in me is so excited

Will it be a heart shaped cake?

Or, will you spoil me with chocolates?

Probably just a simple card with a message from the heart
Wait a sec- 15 pounds??? I am resisting the urge to kick your ass... Never mind, you are forgiven this time.

Oh, is that a diamond ring I see?

Propose? Perhaps...

Or simply pampering me with flowers.Hmm, they smell wonderful

Even if that is not possible, never mind,just a simple 3 words- I LOVE YOU- scribbled on the walls of my house.Hey, I am pretty blind, I need it to be written in big words plus I have neighbours=)

In fact I got my lips all decorated,ooopps, what I mean is, I applied a "small amount" of lip stick on=)

Just may be, if we decide to steal a kiss from one another under the beautiful stars...

Rinnngggg! Oh my phone, is it one of your love messages?I wondered... Huh,no it is not! What, I don't belief this ..Someone shot my cupid..It broke its wings.Great, no messages of love & presents this year.

Riiiinnnggg! Again my phone?This time it felt real. Oh,I was dreaming. It is Valentine's Day.Guess, I have to wait for my cupid to recover,and that would be next year...
*The story continues when my cupid is fully recovered*

February- It Is Here Again

It is the month of love again. Now, if you have noticed I have changed the layout for my blog so that it goes hand in hand with the theme of this month-love.The papers are filled with promotion for Valentine's day. Every dish comes in heart shape. The bracelets and pendants are made pretty with diamond studded stones.Pink is also the colour of the month.Thank God the roses are still in its original shape, but the prices are tremendously high. It is the month when some of us are madly, deeply in love. And, of course it can also be the month when some of us are left heart-broken. Sad. I had a friend whose boyfriend broke up with her on Valentine's Day.That really sucks! But hey, this is life, no one says its going to be perfect.That apart, but this month of February is filled with events.

Feb 8 - I am starting my fifth year ( My tummy is filled with butterflies)
Feb 14- Valentine's Day & Chinese New Year
Feb 15- My Dad's birthday ( I am going to celebrate)
Feb 19- My lovely sister's wedding
Feb 20-Wedding dinner
Feb 22-Her birthday
Feb 24- I am shifting to a new place.

See, how exciting it is. But the most important of it all is the big day-my sister's wedding. Damn! I still can't belief she is getting married. Why do I find it so hard to let her go. I guess I have never really seen her as someone who is grown up and is ready to start a family. She is only 4 years older than me.So we never really had any serious conversations as siblings.It is always something silly, with us " barking" at each other. And of course ,have I mentioned that we are totally different.She is the more cool one.Well I am on the other hand , the more stressed one.I remember mum telling me once that she has kids at two opposite poles of the world.How true=) Anyway I told Chumi ( my sister) last week, "Chum, I can't belief you are getting married. You will still be the same after getting married right" ....I had no idea where that came from.. She being herself said this " Stupid..... I also can't belief I am getting married" Than the conversation got interrupted.Hmm, now thinking back, what she means she can't belief, isn't she the one who is getting married. Just look at the amount of thinking imbalance that this matrimony can bring out in a person. Honestly, I think she is the only one who is making sense of this month of love- 10 years in love & she is finally embarking on a new journey with the man who has managed to sweep her off her feet. All the best!

Yet To Be Discovered...

When the breeze of love finds my way
I stopped in my path,
I felt the connection
Instantly I knew a new road will be laid
An adventure,
We will both discover together
We will stick by each other,
As we unfold the mystery of love
And we shall leave our trails along the way,
As a living proof of our wonderful journey
It would be a history,
In the future
About the everlasting love there ever was...

Fling or Commitment?

Bonjour!I just finished watching "He's just not that into you" and I want to write on love and girls. For many of you who have watched that movie , its not exactly the type of movie that will make you wanna fall in love or have all that I think I-am-ready-to-have-a-men-in-my-life sort of effect , just a simple movie with a practical ending to it ( Nevertheless , the kinda movie that gives me that feeling would be movies like "Never Been Kissed" ) Love this movie! Absolutely , even more just for Drew Barrymore! Anyways , as I was watching, thought to myself the way Gigi acted is just so predictable! It is just like many of us girls will do! Let me enlighten you, for those of you who did not watch-she goes around waiting for the so call Mr.Right's phone all day long , which of course did not happen, cause he has someone else to flirt with, than another guy comes along, and he leaves her signs all the way long like he is interested , than goes about saying "oh you just misunderstood the whole thing!" when she likes him, than leaves her again* just wondering- why are we called the complicated ones again?*I remember having this conversation with a friend once, and she went on lamenting about how she does not have a boyfriend and how her mum goes about pushing her to get one and she is just left with a whole lot of frustration! Then, there is the constant mumbling about what do we do if all the pretty girls with pre-existing boyfriends flirts? What do we do??? I can't pull out a guy from my pocket and show my mum! Next the conversation goes into series of self-blaming episodes - I am fat, I am ugly , He does not find me attractive, and yes I forget to mention, always put the blame on the other girl with a lot of wishes=)- She is a flirt ,Wish she gets caught one day, Wish her actual boyfriend leaves her..than she knows how it feels! And right after all this, the conversation will slowly drift to our dreams " You know ruby, just wish one day, I will flirt as much and he will fall for me and I will gladly tell him a big no and have his heart broken into pieces, just so that he will feel what I go through! Well fair enough, and of course than we have a good giggle by making fun of both the girl and guy and than go to bed.The next day, we forget everything ,till something happens or till someone steps on the trigger button, and the cycle repeats. { We girls get emotionally intoxicated before we loose our social inhibition and start pouring out things , that's why we don't require the booze!) Oh, just if you are wondering what I could have said, well here goes, same thing all the time " Hey look at me I am doing fine without one , it can't be that bad, he will come along, you just have to wait patiently" (though,once in a while , it does sound pretty annoying to hear myself say such things and in one corner of my brain, some clusters of my cells does warn me to stop lying, there is no such thing as waiting for Mr.Perfect, it does not happen that way! And this my dear friend, is called life!) Though I am more of a person always living in fantasy , always thinking things will almost always work out fine, but honestly it never did! ) On the other hand , I had another friend who had two boyfriends at the same time and cheating on the both of them and I overheard her congratulating a friend of hers on how lucky she is to have found love and how she wish she could be just like that.And mind you both the guys she was dating are nice guys. Clear cut , she just can't appreciate! You know its just the temporary fling , to satisfy her needs! Probably she would say I have not find the right one yet, but I think its crap! We always do it don't we, we never learn to appreciate what we have , we take for granted when someone care for us so much till we loose them. Oh by the way, I don't say a thing in such situation , cause firstly, if its your fault then you deserve a slap more than a shoulder to cry on or secondly I have not fallen in love so I can't possibly know what you mean.But knowing my friend a little above too well, I would stick with the first possibility. However, the one thing that kept me thinking from just know, is what happens to all those wonderful girls with a decent attitude? We constantly become the heart-broken victims , kept in the why-mode all the time- why has he not called yet, why can't he ask me out , why this and why that... trust me, we can go on for hours doing nothing but just questioning why's , than shed tears and come up with all the possible answers to satisfy ourselves and worst still we come up with answers to back him up when somewhere deep down in the tiny miny portion of our hearts we know he is a complete asshole! It keeps me wondering all the time , but I think it is an inborn thing , its in our genes! And when we have someone , we try so hard to keep them to ourselves that we become to o overprotective and suspicious and then ruin everything. Life is trust! But with so many weirdos ( girls and guys) nowadays , trust has become a matter of reassurance with constant questioning and possible ways to make sure he/she does not cheat on you. With that said, I think luck plays a big part, when you find the right one,it fits in like a jigsaw- puzzle , perfect! And when I mean perfect- I mean there must be loads of fighting , loads of loving , loads of humor , loads of "I don't like you" , loads of " I love you" ,loads of being childish, loads of being matured,wrapped up in bundle of trust, care , and responsibility! This would be my definition of perfect! I want both the ying and yang, good and bad! I want to be able to say " I am sorry " and " I love you". Can you imagine a life that is too perfect? Its like going on a road with no ups and downs , its like listening to the broken recorder again and again and again...I would be bored to death even before I start the journey. Its these little fights that at times that will spice things up and strengthen the bond. Than I can bravely say , I have been with him through thick and thin , through the best and the worst. I just thought of another friend of mine telling me once, "I have gone through so many hardships in life , just hoping my married life will be a happy one! "How true? Don't we all want that , something to call ours, someone to witness our life, to share it with? Well, I know I do...

Love

Love is not about flattering
It is about caring
Love is not about impressing
It is about commitment
Love is not about Valentine’s Day
It is about everyday
Love is not about u or me
It is about sharing
Love is not about “I will think of you”
It is about “You are always on my mind”
Love is not about “I will pray for you”
It is about “You are always in my prayers”
Love is not about “I will give you a shoulder to cry on”
It is about “I will cry with you”
Love is not about now
It is about eternity!

My Guardian Angel

~In loving memory of my dad~

Five months have passed by, and the thoughts, memory and especially the love for you is stronger than before.Weird, you might say if you are physically present here, I would have thought the same if someone were to tell me , but it is the truth.When you were near , I saw you, we spoke, we had woderful days together and all the great stories of childhood that you shared with me , of course, I can never forget how you got your job , blessings from god you would say. But now, when you are physically absent, in this past five months, all I do is I think about you-every second and minute of the day.Nowadays, I will always wonder what would acha would have said if he was here, what would he have done. Now when I am down, I talk to you still, staring at the photograph every time, its different, yes, five months ago I would do a little bit of complaining when I am switched to my depressed mood and you would do all the advicing part along with all the 'still find it amazing' proverb and philosophy of yours, but now I do the talking and you just listen, but I know you are there to help invisibly, my Guardian Angel, that's what Sham says all the time and I know deep down in my heart it is the truth!

Love you always!