16 Days Into New Year

Happy New Year! I know my shout outs are always delayed, but hey, I had a reason for it,I was away for my community postings , had a nice time, will write all about it in the coming blogs, need to get few of my photos first. Anyway, it is exactly been 16 days into the new year and I have not made any resolutions till date. Kind of have my to-do list to compensate, so not to worried. I have learned a lot in this pass three weeks, mostly human behavior-ma favourite topic! I love to read and analyze people. It is funny and weird how God plan things in life, people you never once think you will get close to, now seem kinda attached. I have no comments, I am just following the flow. I am very grateful for all the wonderful friends I am blessed with, so guess there is no room to complain. I am expecting a larger circle of friends in 2009, what do ya expect, with all the different batches I am being placed in! Big group of friends means a lot of obligations in life! I hate to be obligated to people, only two things in life I will always feel obliged and I am always willing to do anything- first, my family and next non-family members that I hold close at heart. Weird, I know, some of us one to be surrounded with a whole load of friends, whereas I on the other hand like anything in minimization. Well, other than that, I remember a friend telling me once, that girls are vain when it comes to camera- all they do is to take photograph of themselves,well, no comments again, pretty arguable topic, but leave me with a camera and to my own amusement I found myself to be quite vain as well=) I had a lot to write in but again I am just staring at the screen blankly trying to pick up what are the details I wanted to key in so badly for the past few weeks, nothing coming to mind. Guess will just stop here. Loads of love and hug-please continue the love chain if you are a good human.

Cherish

~ No words can ever describe you, it was a blessing, and I am glad to have experienced 21 years of my life in your presence~

Seven months have passed
New Year has arrived
And I looked around
Something is missing
The familiar face
The caring voice
The comforting hug
Yes, the hug…
I miss the hug the most
How secured it was when I had your hands around me
It was magical
I used to tell myself
All the pain and sorrow flew away
Replacing with reassurance
I call it God’s touch
But, now at this very moment
It is all gone
This indescribable feeling in me
Am I running?
Am I moving forward?
Am I pretending?
I don’t know
Frustration is all I am loaded with
Regrets for not saying what I am supposed to
Now, my heart yearns to see you
Just once
To say and show my love
That I could not make myself do at the very time I was losing you
I was afraid
Is all I can say…
I am thanking God for all those wonderful time He granted me with
To be able to know a great person like you
You have always been the best and will always remain so!

P/S : I LOVE YOU

Ma Penang Trip

(From left-Joanne, Rathi, Parames and myself)

( Me & Parames )

Finally, as promised, a short note on my Penang trip.Don't have all the picture though! Will try to get them as soon as possible. So those are the three of them that made my day-Jo,Ratz, and Parames. The awesome part about the whole trip was definitely the ferry ride!My favourite! Just standing there at the deck of the ferry, with the wind blowing against my face, the view of the island at the far end, the sound of the wave hitting against the ferry, and the wonderful sight of jellyfish drifting lazily in the water was just awesome! We had our breakfast in Anandha Bhavan-disappointing nasi lemak but the best bru coffee and oh yeah, our topic of discussion-period;) { Galz, what do ya expect, not really sure how we ended up with such a topic though!}
Next, was all about walking down the Little India street- looking, analyzing and of course shopping! Then, we came to a shop but I couldn't make myself step into the shop- it was the sight of the man sitting there with a weary look clad in a blue checkered sarong. There was something familiar about the sight.I have seen it and gone through it before but the man back then happen to be my dad.No wonder, tears just welled up in my eye and my heart beat faster and I just moved on to the next shop with the pain filling me up.Then, I noticed I can't run away! Anything and everything brings back those bitter memories! Well, moving on, we hopped into the bus and went to Queensbay Mall----FOR LUNCH! Haha, should have looked at us, it was nearly four and our stomach was growling in hunger and we looked pathetic, it is as if we were just ready to swallow anything coming our way, but hey, we dragged ourselves to KFC and the rest is history:) We did not really have much time to look around the mall, so we did a very fast window shopping to catch the next bus and then the ferry back home! Oh by the way, I ended my day with nasi lemak again! So, that is basically how I spend my day with these wonderful and lovely friends of mine. Planning for a next trip there very soon and this time we are gonna stay there. Bu bye, loads of love and hug!

Must Be Spring

It must be spring,
The loud laughter
The sweet smell of flowers
The soft breeze gently lifting my spirits
Telling me you are around
Do you remember the white sand?
We wrote our names on
Washed away with the ocean waves
We smiled
Cause only you and I know
The love crafted in our hearts
Will never die
Unlike the sand
Our feelings are real
They will last for an eternity!

The Last Sun

There she stands
Looking out of the window
The sorrow in her face
The tears in her eyes
No one knows
No one understands
The sun is setting
She looks at every corner
The pictures
Brings back thousands of sweet memories
She once stood at the same corner
With her flame
Now, there she is again
All alone this time
Her trust and faith broken
Here,she is standing in shame
There,the sun goes
Behind the beautiful mountains
She made her mind
The pain was too much to bear
In an instant
It all turned black
Like the sky outside
There she was
Lying this time
Not standing
The pain buried within her
At the same corner once she thought
Life begins
Now,it all ended...

Life Is Like A Box Of Chocolates

Aloha all! Well, the phrase or rather the famous movie title just cross my mind " Khabhi Khushi Khabhi Gham", and to think over it, you will realize how true it is. Yeh zindagi bhi kitna complicated hai! At times the sorrow seeps into the soul, the next excitement and happiness. Quite balanced I would say. But than again the art of controlling the emotions or the after effect of the sorrowness and happiness is the very important essence of life. I remembered a friend who once told me that life is like a box of chocolates, which is absolutely true! Hey, common don't forget that there are dark chocolate, bitter chocolate besides the sweet ones.So, you get it, we are again talking about balance. Okay,I think much have been said about the ying and yang concept already. Hope you don't find the analogy to be too complicated though! Back to me, I spent my three days break chilling with friends. Hmm, more of a couple and me. In short, it was fun and akward at the same time. There are moments when I wish the earth would just swallow me, and than there were times I wish I was an ostrich , hoping to stick my head into the sand. Then, there were moments, I actually appreciated the presence of television in the eating outlets, ahh, what a wonder they are to keep yourself busy while the two of them can have time for themselves. So,yah, that's pretty much about myself. Have you wondered why there are times you could just be yourself when you are around certain people but not completely yourself around some other people. I used to wonder. I just think it is the fact that we are worried how people would perceive us and this controls the way we behave.

Down Memory Lane

~Love's enduring promises~

It felt like it was just yesterday that you hold my hands when I took my first step.
It felt like it was just yesterday that you educated me on the laws of life.
It felt like it was just yesterday that mum and I sang Old Black Joe in our wonderful home.
It felt like it was just yesterday that I found comfort in your ever consolling words.
It felt like it was just yesterday that you wiped away my tears.
It felt like it was just yesterday that you gave me a huge hug and I felt very safe again.
It felt like it was just yesterday that we spoke on world issues.
It felt like it was just yesterday that you told me my mistakes.
It felt like it was just yesterday that I reminded you to smile.
It felt like it was just yesterday that I told you to slow down.
But it has been half a year since you left on Decemnber 1.
And you are still living in my heart, and the love is growing stronger with each passing day!