If Only I Can Hit The Rewind Button...

~11 months and still fresh~

Missing you! Teared many times cause the thought of you just keeps coming back though at times I tried running . I felt hurt and crushed the day a new political change took place. I only realized we had a new prime minister during the mid day, felt very upset, at that very moment wished you were here telling me and discussing what's going on.You should know better, politics and me are far apart, yet I try so hard to keep abreast with everything new, but at times I just can't and really wished you were here, cause ALL things were so much easier in your presence.You will be surprised to see me now if you were physically present, I have changed so much, feel like I am growing up everyday. TOO matured at times, at times feel like going back to the usual me, to be just like how I was in your presence, feel like listening to all the advices and stories we used to share. Missed the "standing in the balcony times" and making fun of ama. Really wished it could all happen again. Missed you calling me "simandhi putri". Now its me and my battle!

Been kissed

I had a rather challenging day, just went on to be the depressing one. I finally managed to pull myself up and went to temple. Just sat there- only me and God. But God is not that bad after all, he gave me a happy ending.Saw this kid, one and a half years old, no words to describe him.Xtremely adorable! Someone should put a sign on him*CAUTION-XTREME CUTENESS CAN BE DANGEROUS*, u know the sort of thing that keeps you away from a place.Anyway back to my story, the little pie mimicked every action of mine. He came up to me and planted a kiss right on my lips with all the saliva of course but it did not bother me at all, in fact I felt blessed cause I was the chosen one=) Then being the usual me, I gave him one of the banana I had in my hand, he ran back to his mum and came back to me to get all of the flowers and the last fruit I had.I gave it to him. I couldn't control myself, I just pinched and stroked his cheek till the deep dimple is formed. God, what a sight.Really made my day!Feel like my energy level just went up.Anyway all the low mood should be due to the once in a month hormonal change that takes place. The only time in life I ever wish I was a boy is during this time of the month and also wish I could swap places with all the boys. And the only time I want to get married is each time my exams are near. Oh ya, did I mention that I end my day with ice-blended mint mocha.Perfecto!Plus, before leaving the boy stroked my cheek=)

My Penang Trip 2

I look scary!

Parames, what you doing?

Precious friends

The gal next to me has very beautiful eyes, well defined!

I like how rathi's curls and the " whatever" spiral thing hanging from the tree complementing each other!

Me and the "liltle" Gods

Kinisha

Me and Sinduja

Me and Divu

Me and Thejas

Kids! They colour my world! A picture of God's perfection. Its like having God next to you.A world with no problem, all laughter, crying and fighting, and yet no grudge. Absolute perfection. They bring smile to my face, brighten my day and my heart feels lighter.They say the wackiest things and also the most intelligent things, that make you think. Fat, round, ball-like babies are ma favourite with big big eyes and all smiles.Sometimes I can't control myself, just feel like pinching their cheeks and taking them home! I like to make kids cry, love the change in their expression, hai, so adorable! Nop, I am not a sadist. You will understand what I am talking about when you grow up with a child. I have always wanted a "kindergarten" full of kids, probably will have my uterus out with the birth of my last child=) I just wish kids never grow up , they just remain the same all throughout, quite impossible I know,will continue loving these "little Gods" with all my heart!

Onion=Me

Happy April's Fool!* not to sure if people actually wish, but i do, makes me happy* Did not play a prank on anyone though.A friend tried, but it went unfruitful=) Anyway, wanted to share something very interesting from my psychiatry class. My lecturer said that we are all like onions! Ring a bell??? Yup, that's exactly how Shrek described himself to donkey! We are made from layers and layers of extremely thin skin that makes up a big fat ball- the onion! Depending on which layer that is being peeled, we portray our emotions! See, no one is perfect, as much as we try to maintain our cool and walk around like nothing bothers us ( which as a matter of fact they often do) just that it is all stored up under this so called thin layers of the onion, just waiting to blow up one day when someone steps on the trigger button! At times its better to let go off your frustration to a close friend at that very moment than bottling it up, as it will only be disastrous for us in the end. So, that's basically a philosophical theory, upto us on how we want to perceive it.As for me, I absolutely agree with Shrek!By the way, finally got my net connection, but kinda slow, and as usual there are just so many things to pen down but time is my major problem now! Will try to find the time though, till then, wishing you a blessed day and love you all!

The Metamorphosis From Caterpillar To Butterfly

~ 10 months have passed and I dedicate this to myself and my family members in the ever loving memory of our loving dad~

its an excerpt from one of Anthony Robbins's book

....."You're thinking like a caterpillar." He asked me what I meant. "There's a point,"I said, "where most caterpillars think that they have died.They think life has ended.When is that?" He said,"Oh yeah,when that thing starts wrapping around them." I said, " Yeah, pretty soon the caterpillar gets wrapped in its cocoon,buried by all this stuff.And you know what?If you were to open up that cocoon, the caterpillar is no longer there.There's just all this mush and goo and stuff.And most people, including the caterpillar,thinks it's dying.But really it's beginning to transform.Do you understand? It is going from one thing to something else.And pretty soon,what does it become?" And he said,"A butterfly." I asked," Can the other lilttle caterpillars on the ground see that this caterpillar became a butterfly?" He said,"No." I said, "And when a caterpillar breaks out of the cocoon, what does he do?" He said, " He flies."I said,"Yeah, he gets out and the sunlight dries off his wings and he flies.He's even more beautiful than when he was a caterpillar.Is he more free or less free?" He said,"He's much more free." And I said," Do you think he will have more fun?" And he said," Yeah- he's got less legs to get tired!" And I said,"That's right, he does.He doesn't need legs anymore; he's got wings.
I THINK ACHA HAS WINGS NOW!

Love

Love is not about flattering
It is about caring
Love is not about impressing
It is about commitment
Love is not about Valentine’s Day
It is about everyday
Love is not about u or me
It is about sharing
Love is not about “I will think of you”
It is about “You are always on my mind”
Love is not about “I will pray for you”
It is about “You are always in my prayers”
Love is not about “I will give you a shoulder to cry on”
It is about “I will cry with you”
Love is not about now
It is about eternity!