The Metamorphosis From Caterpillar To Butterfly

~ 10 months have passed and I dedicate this to myself and my family members in the ever loving memory of our loving dad~

its an excerpt from one of Anthony Robbins's book

....."You're thinking like a caterpillar." He asked me what I meant. "There's a point,"I said, "where most caterpillars think that they have died.They think life has ended.When is that?" He said,"Oh yeah,when that thing starts wrapping around them." I said, " Yeah, pretty soon the caterpillar gets wrapped in its cocoon,buried by all this stuff.And you know what?If you were to open up that cocoon, the caterpillar is no longer there.There's just all this mush and goo and stuff.And most people, including the caterpillar,thinks it's dying.But really it's beginning to transform.Do you understand? It is going from one thing to something else.And pretty soon,what does it become?" And he said,"A butterfly." I asked," Can the other lilttle caterpillars on the ground see that this caterpillar became a butterfly?" He said,"No." I said, "And when a caterpillar breaks out of the cocoon, what does he do?" He said, " He flies."I said,"Yeah, he gets out and the sunlight dries off his wings and he flies.He's even more beautiful than when he was a caterpillar.Is he more free or less free?" He said,"He's much more free." And I said," Do you think he will have more fun?" And he said," Yeah- he's got less legs to get tired!" And I said,"That's right, he does.He doesn't need legs anymore; he's got wings.
I THINK ACHA HAS WINGS NOW!

Love

Love is not about flattering
It is about caring
Love is not about impressing
It is about commitment
Love is not about Valentine’s Day
It is about everyday
Love is not about u or me
It is about sharing
Love is not about “I will think of you”
It is about “You are always on my mind”
Love is not about “I will pray for you”
It is about “You are always in my prayers”
Love is not about “I will give you a shoulder to cry on”
It is about “I will cry with you”
Love is not about now
It is about eternity!

My Swimming Experience

Clad in a black lycra swimming suit with water neck high and holding on to the sides of the pool on a Monday evening is not exactly my idea of enjoying myself. I have always had this inborn fear of water , never particularly had any personal incident though! In the name of keeping my sisters company and to prove to myself that I can do it, I jumped into the water.Splash! Next thing I know, I was just holding on to the sides of the pool and moving from one end to the other. A movement that covered the rectangular shape of the pool. I did try to float. With both my hand positioned in a V-shape ( from the side view of course) , and pressing my hands on the blue tiles with all my might or simply put, with all my body weight focused on my shoulder joints, I managed to float, for a few seconds, hmm...the word "few" sounds too long, it was more like 0.0001 millisecond before my legs start hitting the floor of the pool. Then, the routine, I kicked myself upwards from the floor, then in I go again, pretty annoying. After much analyzing, I finally think its my heavy arse that pulls me down. It was more like a drowning lesson. You will feel the fun of getting yourself wet in the water just for that particular moment till reality hits you the next morning- the killing pain on my shoulders and chest muscle!Arghhh... Anyway, besides all the pain and my brilliant ideas of securing myself from drowning, it was still the best time of my life, just to be able to spend it with my family! Would love to do it again, though I am still sticking with my decision not to learn swimming in the near future. I feel out of control when I am in the water, the currents are too strong for me to be able to do anything in time plus considering the fact I am a bit slow, anyway don't want to mess with the power of nature.

Shrek And Donkey

I have a problem. I am torn in between Shrek and Donkey! Donkey is annoying, he talks,talks,talks and talks. He gives you a good company though, a nice friend to be around , makes your day , loving and yes caring, definitely. Shrek is the family man, more of a rational creature, cute ( something that is not seen in donkey), loving, adorable, loves his kids and Fiona. After much thinking, I would like to have Shrek as my husband and Donkey as my best friend! Weird, but I am still thinking.... again.... and again...hard to decide, will leave it to God!

Maahiya

This is just my song, every word, every music beat is just perfect to my ears.Would move to this piece anytime of the day! It is just beautiful and mysterious at the same time. It is the inner feelings of a lady that are hard to be described that is described so splendidly. The dark secrets that only you and yourself share which is carried out very well in this piece.Love it! It is from the movie Awarapan.

Somewhere Out There, I Know There Is Someone

Who Is Waiting Just For Me Maahiya

He Is Gonaa Set Me Free Maahiya

Jiski Aankhon Mein Meri Hi Nami Ho

Koyi Toh Hai Woh Yaar Maahiya

Karoon Main Intzaar Maahiya

Jisake Jine Mein Meri Hi Kami Ho

Rahe Jo Bekaraar Maahiya

Woh Mujhpe Nisaar Maahiya

Jisaki Har Baat Mujhse Judi Ho

Chaahe Jo Beshumaar Maahiya

Wafa Se Wafaadaar Maahiya

How Long My ???

Why Can You Be A Part Of My Reality

Usako Li Zindagi Ke Khwaab Main Bunoo

Chamkile Rang Saare Unamein Bunoo

Usako Aksar Khayaalo Mein Socha

Kahin Toh Hai Woh Yaar Maahiya

Woh Mera Dildaar Maahiya

Somewhere Out There, I Know There Is Someone

Who Is Waiting Just For Me Maahiya

He Is Gonaa Set Me Free Maahiya

I Know That He Is Gonaa Be My Destiny

Its All Part Of ???

Kabse Usake Aane Ki Main Raah Takoon

Kabse Chhupa Ke Ise Dil Mein Rakhoon

Mere Dil Ne Taraasha Use Jaisa

Milega Wahi Yaar Maahiya

Hai Mujhe Aitbaar Maahiya

Somewhere Out There, I Know There Is Someone

Who Is Waiting Just For Me Maahiya

He Is Gonaa Set Me Free Maahiya

Jiski Aankhon Mein Meri Hi Nami Ho

Koyi Toh Hai Woh Yaar Maahiya

Karoon Main Intzaar Maahiya

Jisake Jine Mein Meri Hi Kami Ho

Rahe Jo Bekaraar Maahiya

Woh Mujhpe Nisaar Maahiya

Jisaki Har Baat Mujhse Judi Ho

Chaahe Jo Beshumaar Maahiya

Wafa Se Wafaadaar Maahiya

I Am The Ballerina Girl In The Picture

He looked. He touched. He ran his fingers along my neckline. He loved the pale pink lacy dress on me. I heard him say “Wished those hair was let loose, love the auburn colored locks framing up her face”. “She is pretty, a little touch of white pearls will do wonders on her”, I heard the other man responding. I am never good enough! They always want to see me in everything that pleased their eyes. Appreciate me for who I am, I screamed. None heard, I know, even frustrating. Take me with you is all I ask, give me a house to live in! My thoughts were interrupted when he walked away. I am saddened. I really liked him. Wish he has chosen me. I saw him admiring the salsa lady at the other corner. Then he turned, walked and stood right in front of me. “I will take her!’ he exclaimed. My heart beat faster in excitement. He liked me. I caught his attention. He holds me close to his chest. I felt safe. I am owned , I can proudly say it. I felt his moist lips on mine. He loves me. I did not want to tear and spoil my beautiful complexion. He hung me on a purple colored wall in his bedroom. He admired me everyday. I felt splendid. I know I am gifted. After all, I am the ballerina girl in the picture!

Instinct

I saw,
Those eyes were staring at me
I got a glimpse of his vision
She stopped to look
I watched
The movement of their lips,
So familiar
What is it?
I wondered,
A cloud of anxiety circling me
My name
That’s what it was
They are talking about me
Why?
I questioned,
I am always their target
I don’t care
This is my life
Those wild eyes will haunt me today
But tomorrow,
It will be my day!